Well... some blessings come from a car that lacks a radio. I've had a lot of time lately to think. Yes, think. I have tried to go back in time in my mind and find the last time that I was actually, really, honestly happy. After much trying and rehashing memories, I've realized that I have never really been happy. I mean, don't get me wrong, there have been happy moments, but to actually say that I was completely happy during any one time in my life brings a blank. This is really good news in a sense, because I can't sit here and think back to a time when life was better or easier or happier, because that time doesn't exist. Maybe it never will? I don't know.